1626.) or so long I've been keeping guys at a distance, so it never works out. It's always because I'm "too busy" or "don't put in enough effort" so I don't get hurt when it ends because I was the one that ruined it. I controlled who left me, who broke my heart. But now I'm opening up and I want it to work and it's not. So now I'm cared that maybe I am just incapable of a working relatonship.